After having the opportunity to "wear" my new face out in public a few times, I'd like to report on internal changes, which I have perceived. By that, I mean to illustrate how my perception of the outside world has shifted, and how others seem to be treating me a little differently than they did before.
To begin with, my intellect feels sharper. This does not mean that I grasp abstract ideas in any increased capacity, and has nothing to do with Intelligence Quotient; instead, it means that the information coming into my retina seems to be processed in a more keen, observant manner. My eyes feel a bit more relaxed, as well, and as a result, my gaze feels more equipped to perceive accurately.
At the grocery store today, I felt my gaze being light, and more approachable, than before. Please forgive my simplistic language, as I am not adept at describing my internal world of feeling and perception.
Others look at me in a different capacity now. In the past, I have been seen by the majority as somebody who is missing some cognitive function, albeit someone with a kind heart. I know this because I am observant, despite the illusion that I am an airhead, and because others have previously commented to that effect. Those who are close to me know that I have a temper in certain circumstances, but by and large I am considered to be a gentle soul by other people, if only one whom is frequently lacking lucidity.
I cannot read the thoughts of others accurately, but based on my observation of the expressions, and actions, of others whom I have recently met, I conclude that life is helping me out now, in ways which it wouldn't in the past. Since I live in a consumerism-based culture, this has predominantly taken the form of being given deals when I make purchases; however, of much greater importance, I feel there are instances where others are able to peer at my spirit, wherein I have caught their true attention for but an instant before the connection is lost. In some instances, rather than being greeted with fake, consumerism-based enthusiasm, I can detect a subtle curiosity in the voices of some people whom I have met, as if they detect that I am on the path of truth, light, and progress. This has very rarely occurred in the past, when others would praise me, or want to avoid me, in the same manner as they would treat a disabled person, instead of perceiving my true identity... In the past, only a rare young child would be able to perceive my spirit.
In other words, while I feel that my spirit is somewhat evolved in its capacity to observe the truth, my body has always presented an absent stare, and has clouded my perception. I am eager to find out if the two will synchronize someday, so that I am able to display my spirit's current place in evolution to the external world...
For unselfish reasons, I feel that we all ought to have such an opportunity, in order to act as a beacon of light for others, and to present a positive example for the rest of humanity.
There is something very meaningful here, which goes far beyond cosmetic appearance...