Yes Nakedeye,
I honestly think you're one of the rare people who just understands intuitively what this is all about. You've got a good sense about it, a self awareness and a knack for this which is really crucial. I can sense it through your writing. You're spot on about intentions, expectations, diet, and the rest of it.
When people think nothing is going to improve, and they aren't persistent, and they aren't willing to make any changes to their lifestyle to become healthier, they don't improve. Even if they just subconsciously have doubt, this can dramatically impede progress. Those people like you who really want to improve and expect to improve DO improve every single time. Your mind is linked to all the cells in your body, once you give them the momentum to change position you've got to do the rest physiologically and psychologically. Try as I might to explain this sort of thing in my emails, it isn't something you can teach. People just naturally understand it or they don't.
This reminds me of a story my old NCR doctor told me... she once treated a patient who was brought in by his girlfriend. She basically forced him into it, and he angrily complied but was very annoyed about having to sit through "this bullshit." As you may know, NCR docs have to give about 45 minutes of bodywork prior to treatment, so both the patient and doctor were uncomfortable the entire time. Then when he was finally treated, he cried bloody murder. "OWW WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO DO, KILL ME?" He complained his head ached for months and his body was never the same.
Maybe he was right. Maybe it really did mess him up. But that was because he mentally viewed it as a trauma, and so his body reacted in this way and locked up to create these circumstances.
As the polar opposite example, I had done my research and was absolutely convinced I'd receive huge benefits from NCR. I also wanted to improve more than anyone else had in the past. It turned out I really did improve my first session more than almost anybody in the history of NCR. It's because I wanted it, I expected it, not because I'm special or the doctor had a lucky series.
When I switched doctors to somebody I didn't particularly like, I improved a lot less. In fact, I may not have made any progress with her at all (despite giving her $3000!). Just a coincidence? I don't think so.
Thanks for the well wishes buddy